parece haber llovido
no sé si es el tiempo
o la humedad que llevo por dentro.

qué agridulce es
no saber eludir el verano.

quizás es la precipitación
que hoy me tiene desparramado.

no pasa nada,
de todas maneras
de la tierra mojada florecen las plantas.

24/10/24

alguna vez quise destruir las paredes
que sin pensarlo fuimos creando
alguna vez soné en quemar los papeles
y que todo arda con hermosa fragilidad

porque nunca hubo un plan, tampoco una señal
solo seguimos escalando y soñando
porque cada intento inocente nos acerca más a lo lejano
creando a cada paso un nuevo cielo
donde las nubes concreten lo que queremos

todo el mar sobrevolar
todo tu barrio poder caminar
sin un ritmo, tu camino
nada hay, solo queda soñar con mis manos
derritiéndose en tus manos
derritiéndose en mis manos
y que nuestros dedos se fundan de una vez

19/10/24

full speed to a future of self-medication and poor understanding
of everything you wasted four years in learning
the future, the future, the air's fucking burning!
and sleep, I can't sleep. I did some funny things with my best friend Patrick
this is a song that will most likely bore you
this is a song that will most likely put you to sleep
oh my
my god

why do I stay up late just to wake up late and feel lousy?
if that's the thing, if that's everything, why can't I stop?
another empty hearted notion gone to shit, but it belongs in shit

why can't I see the sunspots in your eyes?
why can't I see the sunspots in your eyes?
why can't I see the sunspots in your eyes?
why can't I see the sunspots in your eyes?
WHHHHYYYYYYY

13/10/24

seven hundred miles away
from what you have to offer
so sweet and soft your pillow
there is an evil to see us to death alone

and who couldn't miss the walls that cradle us?
and sometimes they closed in on you
cause you to suffer
suffering emptiness will only fill the place with a death

20/9/24

sorprender o no sorprender, desilusionar
limitar o multiplicar, responder "no sé"
corregir o dejar hacer, ver la luz cambiar
descubrir, haraganear
suave desistir

confiar o no confiar, darte la razón
no saber nunca qué decir, elegir callar
olvidar que tú estás aquí, no saber qué hacer
entregar todo el corazón
desaparecer

24/3/24

hey coffee eyes
you got me coughin' up my cookie heart
makin' promises to myself
promises like seeds of everything i could be

hey ringwald haze
we're using bruises too loosely in a haste to lose me
and i've given all i could give
we live in quick flips, slips, tips, and taps
to snap us outta these statue traps

but i've taken all i could take
hey ringwald haze
we're using bruises like bruce lee
in a haste to bruise me
and i've given all i could give
i've taken all i could take
i've pushed all that i could push
i've pulled all that i could pull

kitty kitty cat, kitty kitty cat
thin kids get a skinny neck hex
heads hang heavy
i'm feelin' heavy

museum mouth
museum mouth
my how you've misused me

22/3/24

had a piggybank
like a lion's head
knocked it off the shelf
broke down by the bed

pennies from a skyscraper can kill
i've lined up my change
on the window sill

watched for hours
people down below
the wind has frozen my eyes

lost the courage
could not push them off
pulled my head inside

let a winter pass
laying in bed
my coins have frozen to the window sill
walked the shadowed streets
in a happy fear
looking up for change
shining through the air

listen up to your hostage
your brain can't hold her up
all the people you crossed out
you wake yourself back up

watched for hours
buildings fall through clouds

walked the shadowed streets
in a happy fear
looking up for change
shining through the air

listen up to your conscience
the sky can't hold it up
all the people you crossed out
have woke themselves back up

pennies from a skyscraper can kill

9/3/24

what i wouldn't give just to listen, my hands in your hands
what i wouldn't give just to imagine my face in your hands
what i wouldn't give just to abandon myself to your hands
but it never seems to work itself out like that

but it never seems to work itself out like that
pessimism goes to work, pessimism works itself
inside, when the weather is warm, i am shivering
inside, when the weather is warm, i am shivering

and all the poets painted lives to live in
for girls with blue eyes lifting curtains up to crowded rooms

some have it so easy
some have it so easy
i can't be like that, so sorry
i can't be like that, so sorry that

seems it always wants to work itself out like that
pessimism goes to work, pessimism pulls one over

what I wouldn't give just to abandon myself to your hands

9/3/24

"if i cast my eyes before me, what an
infinite space in which i do not exist;
and if i look behind me, what a terrible
procession of years in which i do not
exist, and how little space i occupy in
this vast abyss of time..."

like to the falling of a starre;
or as the flights of eagles are;
or like the fresh spring's gawdy hew;
or silver drops of morning dew;
or like a wind that chafes the flood;
or bubbles which on water stood;
even such is man, whose borrow'd light
is straight call'd in, and paid to night

the wind blowes out; the bubble dies;
the spring entomb'd in autumn lies;
the dew dries up; the starre is shot;
the flight is past; and man forgot

the wind blows out and the bubble dies
the spring entomb'd in autumn lies
the dew dries up and the starre is shot
the flight is past and man forgot

and earth covers earth
and time tryeth truth

earth covers earth
time tryeth truth

as i set down these notes on paper
i'm obsessed by the thought that i may be the last living man on earth
2x2l calling cq
2x2l calling cq
2x2l calling cq, new york?
isn't there anyone on the air?
isn't there anyone on the air?
isn't there anyone?

inside this leaking submarine the hull is closing in
the water is above my ankles and i still can't get you off of my...
i don't think that we can pull this one off
we shall see, time will tell, what is time, and why does it taste like salt water inside of my mouth?

someday i will sail again to a distant shore far away
i will sail again to a distant shore far away

if the line snaps and there's no air, will you hold me?
if i'm asleep, will you wake me?
if this rises and hit the waves, will you dive back down?

some day i will sail again to a distant shore far away
i will sail again to a distant shore far away

hi ho
something's tugging on my leg and there it goes
shallow water must be on the horizon but still too far to go
spilling blood so fast I can't keep up much more

sorry, sorry, can't go no more
sorry, sorry, can't go no more
sorry, sorry, can't go no more (far away)
sorry, sorry, can't go no more
sorry, sorry, can't go no more (far away)
sorry, sorry, can't go no more
sorry, sorry, can't go no more
sorry, sorry, can't go no more
sorry, sorry, can't go no more

(i look down at my blackened hands...)